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By Julie
  I don't know what possessed me to even consider buying clothes during this time of body limbo, but so far this pregnancy I've bought four blouses, a pair of ankle boots, and this dress. I find the collar irresistible. The fit is flattering too, and it isn't even from the maternity section. I'm at 18 and a half weeks, far enough along for an ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby, so that's what we did today. The kids came along for the show. We all had a good time seeing the baby during the examination, but we couldn't tell if Alex and Ana were getting a brother or sister until the doctor started tilting me this way and that way to make the baby move. Finally we were able to catch a glimpse between the little legs and learn that we're having a GIRL. I was unprepared for the flood of emotions that hit me as we left the exam room. You would think that this being baby number three, I'd be an old hand at this mothering business, but all the insecurities that I felt when I found out I was pregnant with Ana came rushing back to be revisited. What it all comes down to is this: can I be the role model that this baby needs? Because even if her personality ends up being nothing like mine, she's still going to look to me for clues on how to behave as her same gender parent. I guess after almost four years of mothering a daughter I still don't have it all figured out yet. Labels: nablopomo, parenting, pregnancy, shopping 4 Comments:
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